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sllu bila mara masuk duit, hum, mesti joli sakan, tk pernah terpikir nk simpan n buat ap2.
satu hari, bila adik riuh nk beli keta satria, n harga dia melibatkan 6 ribu kot,n dia simpan duit nk bayar kereta tu.. baru terpikir, byaknya duit nk guna untuk beli kereta.. adik aku yg baru umor 19 dah kumpul duit nk beli kereta, aku ni??

haish, walaupun tk da lesen kereta lg, heheee (iA, taun depan 2011 bakal amik lesen), teringin gak nk beli kereta, tk kira la kereta apa2 pun, janji first hand n bayar guna duit sendiri (klu mampu)
so, mulai sekarang, aku dh nmpak hala tuju duit elaun mara yang aku dpt tu, perlu dikumpul, supaya dpat la aku beli kereta,

mulai sekarang, sempena merdeka ni, aku wajar la menjadi independent dan mengumpul duitku sebanyak

mungkin, untuk membeli sebuah kereta idaman ku..hee,, kereta apa tu??

independent

thinking,

im 21 now, yet, still feeling like im only 8 hee, or may b 12, cause i think i still need somebody to be by my side, to guide me, show me and tell me which decision to make.

hum, i should be more grown up now, open my eyes, and my heart.. should stay strong, and be wise in my life

hum, i still cant walk on my own, still depends on others in doing smthings, i cant work it out by myself.

aarrghh, i should have change.

this is not soooo goooddd....

create my own way..

nowhere

hum, trying so hard to reach you, but i cant.. im soo scared, scared if i make a mistake, scared if u get away from me.. im trying, trying each day, to be by your side, but i failed, cause u are far, far away from me, not in front of me, im not there, to be with you, for all this hard time,

hum, trying, to say something, to comfort u, to cheer up your day, trying to hug you n said, all this gonna be ok, just a little thing that u need to settle it up, and trying to be mature, accept it as one of your life, which now u find it is very hard for you to struggle, but later on, you will thanks ALLAH, for giving you this challenge, which make you a better person.

hum, trying, trying to write for you, but each time, my mind said no, stop it, you might be hurting someone, it might not be ok right now, but, just want you to know, i want to be somebody, want to be by your side at this moment, wanna feel how ur feelings.. cause it was tears inside of me right now.. cause i cant be nobody.. sadness in my eyes,,

hum,trying to say sorry, cause i cant be the one beside you, sorry if there any mistakes that i had done,

hum,trying to say, many thankss, youre one of best friends that i have ever found in my life, love u lots, thankss so much cause give me a chance knowing you.

hum,trying to say there is another rainbow for you dear, ALLAH had created one, wipe up your tears, and fake a smile, a nice one, cheer up your day..

lots of love, n lots of trying,,

me myself..

keeping it up for secret..

hari ni kawan aku, dayang jadi org seken tau aku ada blog, hehe, aku mmg tk gtau sapa2 pun aku ada blog, sbb aku tulis untuk suka2, n merepek2 ja, plus aku segan nak kasik org baca, hua2.

so, keeping it up for secret,

sebenarnya mood masa tulis blog ni memg macam2. antaranya :

1. happy - happy sebb kena bukak posa sengsorg. akibat tanak ikut mama g bukk posa dkt surau, hee, bukn ap, mn la nk kenal sgt org kaampung, t mesti kena soal siast anak sapa, keja apa, hu, berjela2, huhu, so, pukul 6 tu kelam kabut la mask, hu, masak aym masak kicpa ja, simple, plus tu ja brg yg aku sempat sambar dlm masa sejam.. hu, berbuka la aku dgn senang hati smbil tguk doraemon.
2. pening - hu, aku ngah carik lagu dalam movie melayu tadi,, emily, bes cita dia, aku ngn mak aku gelak sakan, tapi pening sbb tk tau tajuk lagu tu ap, yang aku tau, hum ada rangkap pelangi kelam, something2... try la taip pelangi, huu, banyak nyaa pelangi, pelangi resort laa, kau umpama pelangi (blog seseorg).. susah nyaa nk carik lagu sedap tuu.. end up, haaiissh, surrender biarllaa lagu sedap tu, t senang2 carik lagi
3. sedih - sedih sebb terbaca yang humm, sir bi aku dah cerai dengan isteri dia.. hum, sungguh tak ku sangka, mmg betul la kan, kita ni org luar, hya melihat n nampak mereka bahagia, n sangka iA jodoh mereka kekal, but then, end up macam ni,. huu, sedih..
4. rindu - huhu, rindu suasana dulu, bila semua adik beradik berkumpul, tk sunyi mcm ni, hum, tinggal mama ngan aku ja kat rumah, almaklum, kakak semua dh kawin, satu kat kl, adik2 smua duduk asrama, jadi la sunyi rumah ni., haishhh,, now, missing those old dayss...