my anak sedara

case 1

im preparing for solat asar, yes there are 2 budak kecik mia n titin come and join me, when all of us are ready with telekung and kain smbahyang, suddenly titin and mia have a nice conversation that make me laugh for a while,

titin - hampa nk ikut mak njang ke kami??

mia - kami ikut mak njang

titin - tapi kami smbhyang lg cepat dari mak njang

mia - ok, kami ikut awakla

those kidss memang cant stop making me laugh :)

us after the prayer, yes anjang n anak sdara yg camwhore

case 2

rayyan, abang atid having fever, a high one i guess, he was so weak, angah went to sent him to the hospital.

when i was giving bath to rayyan

rayyan - anjang, ibu mana

me - ibu g hospital, abah sakit

rayyan - abah bukan sakit, abah demam je. 

k, i have a paused for a moment :)

rayyan again.

he keep using awak to talk with people

when he arrived from kl, he told his tok wan, out of sudden "gigi awak buyuk laa' tok wan yang dok tguk tv tgelak.

 then, one day we left him jap nk g shopping pekan rabu, he woke up the next day asking us anjang dgn ibu tinggal ayyan, anjang g mana, after explaining to him, he went to his tok wan and said, "awak yang tinggal dgn rayyan kan smlm masa ibu tinggal rayyan"  :) :)

rayyan, currently he is the fav of all people, mum called him baby

haaa there a lot of funny things happen with those 4 my anak sedara are around..

my anxiety

im anxious,

worry

yeah lot,

ergh

scared enough though

the best

i may not be the best,
never be the best,
never good enough,

but
i'll try my best
to be the best.

scar

aaaaaaaa

im so sad,

its hurt when u know u hurt someone.

ayuh

ayuh,

berbicara dengan ALLAH..

ujian datang sebagai ingatan

jauh sungguh dariNya

Kerna itu DIa mengingatkan..

sedih itu lebih baik dari gembira..

happen again..

eerr i feel like i like somebody.

but this is weird

plus im afraid

...

weird

yes, i admit im a weird weird people, 

that you rarely meet,

probably once in your lifetime,

i dont know,

just gotta feeling i dont want it,

i highly appreciate if they wont ask..

cuti2 Malaysia

I do have fun during this holiday, GREAT2 holiday for me J bajet nk g hospital nk melawat hospital kedah, tergendala sbb byk sgt aktiviti. Lets se what have i done sepanjang cuti ni

1)     Melawat penang bersama Picah..

We went to penang bridge which then to market chowrastar (tk reti eja, tapi mcm ni laa sbut dia)  kemudian ke quansbay mall, shopping time. and first time rasa jadi pelancong kat tempat kelahiran sendiri. Beli fridge magnet and shopping..

2)     Reunion di penang lagi

bersama yati, parah, pahna, awin, sughairah and lg sorg. Hee g makan laksa, i ate laksa tu 2 pinggan, sbb sedappp. (sedap la jugak walau parah kata tk ) pastu p lepak padang kota smpai pukul 11. Pastu parah g layan saya nk jalan2 pusing prangin mall (mengimbau zaman2 lepak ku kat sini masa darjah 6 dulu2, sob3 kenangan)

3)  Jalan2 di langkawi,

its me n ecah there :)

 wahaaa, for the first time aku dapat jalan2 pusing langkawi, on the first day, kami p buat aktiviti2 air such as parasailing and banana boat, wuhu PARASAILING, before nii memg nk sgt2 buat, weeh best gilaa walau naik atas tu dlam 5 minit ja, tapi tk kisah laa asal dapat try, rasa mcm addicted, nnti nk main lg, mlm tu kitorg g tguk citer mission impossible tu, yg tom cruise blakon, best giler, balik pukul 12 malam, dlm pukul 1 laa smpai resort. He kesian each si driver kitorg.

ktorg b4

                 

Dugong?

        Esok tu g island hopping, first2 dia bwk g tasik dayang bunting, kat situ ada monyet. Abg kat bot tu dh pesan jaga2 beg2 plastik, monyet suka amik, semangat laa kami ni bawak bekal ingt nk makan, mana nk tau ada monyet kat situ, pastu pakat2 sembunyi makanan dalm beg handbag, tapi malangnyaa, deria bau monyet sangat hebat, dengan konfiden n machonya monyet itu berlari ke arah aku dan ecah yang mmg tgah jalan takut2  (almaklum dlm beg aku ada sandwich, dlm beg ecah ada keropok) dia ragut beg ecah, aku terkejut ttolak ecah, ecah pulak jerit, aku yang ngok2 n tk tau nk huat apa dah goyang2 badan ecah, lagi la ecahnya jerit kuat, hii, ecah rentap beg dia n syukur, beg itu selamat. Kami jalan laju2. Lalu depan toilet selamba ja aku buat muka tebal ckp kat akk tu, kak, boleh dak kami tinggal makanan kami kat akk, kami tkmau bawak, amik laa kat akak. Hee mujur akk tu baik. Aku mmg dtg bwk hajat nk mandi kat tasik ti, tapi diorg tanak, pastu tim tut k ramai, jadi aku segan. Lepas tu bila smpai kat pantai beras basah, tanpa ragu2 aku terus kea rah pantai dan mandi sepuasnya. L

Next ktorang gerak ke cable car, wehh seram gila naik dia, walau aku naik ke dua kali dah, tapi rasa seram tu tetap tk hilang wuwuw aku tk mau naik dah lepas nii.. kemudian kitorg g shopping cekelat kat ismail group habih ada laa dlm 138 ringgit, hee coklat aku yang banyaakk.. malam p tguk bunga api kat pntai chenang, jalan memg sesak laa tk blh nk kata apa. Maklum la malam new year.

              Last day kitorg kat langkawi kitorg ke makam mahsuri, otw balik aku sempat g shopping cekelat, wehee stok coklat nk balikk johor.

4)  Mandi air terjun,

wee impian ni dh lama, baru kelmarin rancang, tup2 hari ni menjadi memg best gilaa. Hee hajat nk berendam lama tpi tk dpat laa eden nk mandi lama masa mencemburui..

i like this pic

muka2 penat brenang

Saya suka holiday yang penuh dgn xtbt. Hee thanks all and im totally happy surrounded by those bunch of all lovely people. iA nnti cuti kita holiday2 lagi k..

Renungan bersama

While reading a blog, yeah some of you might know the blog that i follow, hee

I read this sentence:

  “ Sibuk mencantikkan diri dan berhias, mencari penawar masalh jerawat, tapi pernahkan sibuk mencantikkan ibadah dengan ALLAH? “

PAANNGG

Rasa tertampar disitu.

Ya ALLAH, jauhnya aku dari MU.

Alpa dan leka dengan janji dunia.

Sibuk mencantikkan diri

Berhabis duit membeli baju-baju cantik (admit i shop a lot of baju nowadays, urggh)

Bertempek2 segala maneka kat muka untuk menutup cela di wajah (scrub, mask, foundation)

Sibuk cari penawar mengatasi masalah rambut (huwu sedang cuba)

TAPI

Tak pernah langsung terpikir cara nk mencantikkan ibadah pada ALLAH

Tak pernah sibuk2 nak berhias ketika bertemu ALLAH

Tak pernah cari penawar untuk mengkhusyukkan solat..

YA ALLAH, aku terlalu mengejar kesempurnaan di dunia hingga terlupa kesempurnaan pada mu YA RAB.

Terlupa Kau yang akan ku temui di akhir hidup ini.

Sucikan hati, jelas dan murni kan niat..

ruin

i ruin my plan today.

so SAD..

please..

I need a big hug, big big one to make me feel calm and comfortable,

I need a shoulder to cry on to make me feel ok.

really need a rest!

I’m so scared..

i Am

We are not perfect,

We could not always satisfied other people,

Learn to say No if we are not pleasant to do it,

And agree and say YES if only we want and will to.

-        -  Some random thought, on this Tuesday.

BLOOD taKIng...

Before this, the time that dinanti-nantikan selaku pelajar medik adalah amik darah, hee cuak gila nk amik darah org, kat patung pun kdg dapat kadang tk, hee

but today, YEAHHH, i've done venessection on 5 people. 

HOORAAYYY !!! i want to remember this date.

-lupa nk mention, hee 3 success the other 2 not, sobs3..

the first one on budak, vein tk nampak, tk reti nk amik

second on mak cik, yeahaa dapat.

third on pak cik, sibuk tanya pak cik tu senang ke nk jadi doktor ni kalau pompuan, t sapa nk jaga kat rumah, kesian kat anak. hee kelakar soalan pak cik tu

fourth on a young man, huhh tk dpt amik drh, siap kena perli lg dgn mamat tu, takut2 mana nk dapat darah, perghhh pedas tu

fifth on mak cik as well. yeah dapat..

but its ok what, hee at least ada pencapaian sikit, biasala kan awal2 ni..

Oho, i am just so excited.

and yeah done cannulation on people as well, this one FAIL. on both attempts.

NEED TO WORK MORE...

huuuu

getting better,
i hope this is the end stage ..








lol, u can bring me sunshine, through all my days..

Lets run..

I cou ld  w alk ,

I cou ld  ru n,

Bu t  YET,

W hy am   I stu ck   here..

Is it because I’m opt to stay?

word to hold.

Rezeki terletak di tangan ALLAH,

Bukan di tangan manusia.

iA andai ada rezeki ada, tkda tkda lah.

Takpa,

 hidup hanya sementara.

Tk perlu buru semua benda.

Kita mmg tk mampu memiliki semua.

Dapat sikit pun jadilah.

this is from u :)

This is from qiedah, i found it kinda sweet :)


i miss newcastle, i miss all of u so much, we couldnt turn the time back..

DeePer

Semakin dekat kita dengan hari esok,

Semakin dekat kita dengan hari kematian,

Semakin berkurang angka untuk ke hari kiamat..

Ya ALLAH,  bersediakah aku??

hectic

i got a hectic life now,


ohoo no more kebebasan,


this is what i choose,


though i want to patah balik n choose to become a teacher..




aahaa.

far

Im just so far away,


far enough i guess..


bring me back, PLEASE