scratch

a dream of mine,

may only be dream

and 

yes,

I'm not that excited anymore :'(

day

because I always faced that situation, 

so 

that the first thing in my mind 

when they ask about

 STRESS

tips

searching for Mr. Right?

ü  A soul mate who listens to you

ü  A husband that understand you

ü  A good father for your child,

Yet, when you meet the person with 3^rd criteria, above that you can ignore

“Deep meaning there”

drooling

tears,
I hope that will never happen in my life..

because people promise, but yet, people are people
they tend to forget,
and when they remember,
the mistake already happen,
left only rooms for forgiveness..

Secret

some people want to know about us, not because their concerned,

just that they need something to gossip.

So beware with whom you share your stories.

Graduation Day, NUMED class of 2014

Salam and hi peeps,

Happy Ramadhan, it’s 10 day of fasting already, how time fly so fast.

Today Im gonna update about our congregation day. Yes, Im officially a doctor   now :D

It was on 28^th of June 2014. Dad and mum came from kedah, before reaching johor, they did a road trip from kedah- Kl-Melaka-Muar, and then they reach my place Nusajaya. I know Johor is so far from Kedah, and it was a tiring journey. TQ mom and dad for coming. Im so lazy to write more, hee so lets picture describe the day.

my parent 

lol, amik gmbar dgn bunga jee, 

flowers, bought by mum n mak tasha :) i love the white bear, sadly, I left it at my sis house, tssk tssk. 

my family, n afandi's family

thats the end of my medical school,:) 

all praise to ALLAH

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah

the result for my final MBBS just released on Thursday. I must admit I feel goose bumps since wednesday nite till morning the result had released.  Honestly Im afraid of knowing the result. A few days before the results came out, a lot of - thinking been circulating in my mind (Yes, Im good at this - thoughts) I turned my phone to silent mode, so no one can disrupt me. 9.05am, 12th June 2014 = I received a call from fandi. He sound so sad, and told me, are you alone. Alright, thats ALARM me, something bad gonna happen. Am I failed, plese tell honestly. 
He paused and continue = Im pass U pass and we pass :D ALHAMDULILLAH,
I made it. You know my journey through medical year is so tough. 

I admit I failed twice during 1st and 2nd year, syukur ALLAH give me second chance by allowed me to pass on 2nd attempt of taking the paper. 3rd year was the best when I managed to pass during 1st attempt. Failed again 4th year, but ALLAH saved me again during resit exams. Throughout my medical school, SYUKUR ALLAH saved me from failed the year and need to repeat year. (what I want to highlight here is dont give up if you failed the first attempt, keep hoping and believe ALLAH has better plan for us)

and my 5th year, FINAL YEAR = ALLAH reward me with a big gift. Pass this MBBS. A big reward, after He gave me good results during UPSR,PMR,SPM and A- Level.  

what happen to the day?

Fire build up build up and UP

body n mind

keep going body n mind,

dont stop or pause,

you only have 7 days more to change your life..

lately

Lately,
I was sometime at my low side,

keep holding and keep reminding myself, 

"Ikhlaskan hati" in everything I do,

then, I will never feel regret, sad, angry or mad.. 

IA.

else

i make a drastic decision,

hee I know im disappoint some people,

but i bet this the best for me,

Im not like others,

6 weeks to go for final,

i cant take any risk,

ive been there before,

so tried my best,

deep inside me, there are counsouling words,

its ok, know what work for you. what best for other may not be the best for you. keep working, and ignore it

bit by bit

This few weeks,

I think im losing the true me,

bit by bit,

changing towards a strange me,

WHY??

I keep thinking what the causes,

Still could not find out the true reasons

-perhaps ageing? hormonal? environmental? 
- a big SORRY to those I hurt, my judgemental derange, my sensitivity decreasing, my selfishness increasing,.. 

My buffday

Salam all :)

Haa its been ages I left my blog bersawang2. Blame those busy final year life (after ed, surgery, oncall postcall and the list goes on)

Lots of stuff happened on February, Yes2 its my birthday, afandi's birthday and our anniversary, yet not forget I am now a competent driver already (haa i should changed my licence from P-COmpetent now !!)

Here are stories about my fav's month..


3rd february
Its my birthday, mark it in calendar. I got a great suprised that night. My bff make me a cake, a rainbow cake. Haha I always had a nice cake due to have a good friends who love to bake nice and cute cake.. tasha and my numedians gurl stay until 12 at my room until it reach 12am 3 of february. received a lot of present. on 3rd february, had a day out with afandi. when i entered the car, i saw a small nice box wrapped with red colour paper. Honestly, haha i felt oh no fandi did it again, he bought me another globe, perhaps a mini one after I reminded I dont want any globe/map anymore as my birthday present. I opened the wrapping paper with perasaan hiba. Haha, this feeling changed when I read CASIO on the box. Haha, a nice pink casio watch. I swear i smile along the way to tasconi pizza. our favourite place to celebrate special dates.

My rainbow cake, Tasha birthday present and a watch from fandi :)

my watch 

7th february
its his buffday, yes he reached 26 years old now, i told you right he is one year older than me, Pleas please do believe me ;D as usual, I always buy present a month, 2 month perhaps 3 months earlier. After throwing him a suprise with 23 presents last year, I came with no idea what to buy this year and turn up buying stuff that he will usually use every day = KEMEJA. why red?? cause it raya cina maa. haha :D

A dark red kemeja, a special card, and a sincere and honest pills :D

his reaction, this campur he knows someone will treat him nandos ;D 

8th till 9 feb,
I went to singapore, uss and had a nite there with my besties from KTT - IKha fa and mira, not to forget ikha sis, kak ijah. Have a gila2 time there with them. As usual we shared silly jokes that only us know. had a great time. they bought me 2 present from singapore, Ikha bought me a tag holder, its disney princess which I want to use when I become HO soon, IA. And Fa gave me a nice shirt that i really want and plate of souvenier from singapore. and yet on early march i went again to singapore with tasha, her mom, pikah and 2 of my junior.. hehee

Us before having fun with the rides 

me, only a month apart from my third visit to singapore hehe

end of month
Our anniversary, been 2 years now, and still counting.. haha TQ for being kind, honest, understand my craziness and be there whenever im in low side..we celebrate it at D'terrace. A buffet steambot, at rm 24 you can eat and choose anything that you like. hehe sorry no picture capture here, its was in fandi phone, im so busy cooking and grill the daging, ayam n kerang. lol, 

End of february with big smile.

the diggers

Dig Dig my Past

Without considering my present

&

future..

plup

today 

marked our 

1y 

11m 

& 

1d 

being together 

Yes we went through ups and down together :) 

dream

You the one that create your dreams,
Not others..

WiSh List fOr 2014

insyaALLAH my new year resolution..

By end of this year ALL will be mark :)