fragile kid

im a fragile kid,
I count and remember.....

fear

recently

i develop fear to eating

im afraid if i eat i will gain weight.

im afraid of getting fat,


true and honestly

tone

i hate the tone,

I found it full of arrogant and rude.

n kinda arahan.

i hate when people do that, 

ps- less now.. 

parenting..

we have a dinner just now in a restaurant, dining inside the restaurant, as Im afraid eating outside because of cat. Yeah, Im a cat phobia. 

Suddenly came 4 parents, together with their child. Basically, there are 2 type of them =

1st one is the where the parents were so occupied with their mobile phone (updating FB, twitter perhaps,or bersangka baik ada perkara pnting dibincangkan bsama teman sekerja)

2nd The mother keep interacting with the child.

Its reflecting my self, what type of parent im gonna be in future??
The one who ignored my child when their in front of me, or the one who keep my kid accompany.

Parents,

Your children grow so fast, you gonna miss those  

moment without you notice it.

Interact with them, ignored your phone for a while 

(techno take our life so much)

Engage with them, appreciate the moment when 

you are the only world for them, 

You gonna miss those moment so badly,

As they grow older, they slowly detach from you,

without you realising it.

Embrace your parenthood life :)

me = I prefer to be the second mom, IA, I hope I be the BEST for my kids.

wrong

honesty

Honesty sometime not being appreciated by others,

Then why you be so honest?

ps- a word can destroy what we built...

stupid and silly one

i know its a joke, but i cant accept it well. 

i got a new chapter of my life, and i believe in fate. 

stop questioning nonsense and silly q's

Super

I am a super sensitive person..

shoe

I got a pair of shoe previously,

but now I left with one shoe,

One and only :(

google 

- think deeply. people come and go in your life, only true one remain..... 

Yes

exhausted, rush from kl to jb, 

tomorrow waking up 5.30 am,

yes, I can do this.

In relationship, always give and take

Sometime you the one who receive a lot, (I guess most of the time, Im in this category :D, lucky me then xD)

yet remember to be the one who give. 

all da best to u, create new record ok tomorrow :)

Fever

I ve been fever for 4 days already,

i thought it subside yesterday, so i didnt take my pcm.

aa i hate pcm honestly :(

a trip to historical place,

We planning this long time ago, due to some circumstances, we had to delay it.
Yeah, end of paediatric rotation, we heading to Malacca.

Know what, this was my fourth time visiting Malacca, first one when I was a young n cute (perasan disitu) kid, next while I was in KTT, with Ikha N Fa (for a funny reason) then next while I was in my third year medicine with Tasha N Min.

Afandi was my tour guide (a free tour guide act) hee we been to bandar Hilir, as the last time I went there was when I was a kid. We start our journey early in the morning, 7 am, brought along the bfast for us that day and some snacks to chunk on while on the road. I was the one driving from Nusajaya up till end of johor, but couldnt further more, as its raining heavily, and I am not competent yet. hehe 

first when we arrived in Malacca, fandi brought me to his previous school, KYS. It was big indeed, sadly we cant get into the school as there an event was carried on there. So just staring from the gate, haha fandi was so frustrated as he couldnt show me the swimming pool there, he was so proud that it was one of the longest swimming pool in Asia (ok, correct me if im wrong En. ) 

Then we reached Pekan Hilir at 10.40 am I guess, I was so excited, as this is my first time, yeah i considered it first as masa g kecil2 dulu ingt yang kapal besar tu ja. The first place we went of course the huge ship, ok forgive me as I forgot the name, oo Im worse in History and Geography. Entering all those museums like me reading back the history book, It was a great treasure to remind back to what Ive studying before. I was so TEKUN reading the history while fandi always playing around and sleepy (caused he been there quite a lot of time). I scolded him several times for disturbing my reading!! (Focus la sgt kn, If people ask me about history what I can remember now Is parameswara is the first Malacca king, keh2 ) 

The big ship :)

nampat tak ketekunan study?

We been to menara taming sari, wee nice view from the top of the tower. Then we rode the Mini rider. It basically a stimulator machine, you watch a movie in 3D. Fandi got some motion dizziness while inside the machine, so he remain silent. Guess  I was the only one enjoying the ride. 

See Taming sari behind afandi :) 

We perform our prayers in Selat Melaka Mosque, the mosque is so beautiful. Then, we planned for an early dinner so we will reach Johor early. We had our dinner in Baba n Nyonya cafe. It was nice restaurant, believe me the cendol is one of the best cendol I ever had. but, a bit pricey. 

a magnificent mosque :)

Then went back johor, poor fandi, he was so tired, he doesnt allow me to drive, may be he still doesnt believe with my drift skill. hee thanks for being my tour guide and photographer x bbayar. 

yeah thats all, quite a long entree here. 

Last sentence, Melawat melaka beerti melawat Malaysia- Fandi did repeat this phrase 3 times for me. 

TQ for bringing me here :)

we can avoid if we can

its weird listening to some conversation. uhuk2

a song that i love

Le sportsac to hospital

beg ke hospital dh koyak, so need a new bag.


tadaaa here is my new bag 

Sponsored by Afandi (guna duit raya dia kasik, he)




its match well with my case for stetoscope,

given by Ikha

AYUH ke HOSPITAL :) :)

haa aku ni smua barang orang kasik, tima kasih kepada yang menyumbang kepada perkakas hospital saya. :)

blues

Dealing 

with 

heartless and insensitive 

people is useless.

Career planning :)

Yes, our lecturer has asked what our career planning

Before this yes im deeply into becoming a paediatric, yet I changed my mind after doing my SSC in both paed n psychiatric. I want to be a psychiatric instead. some of reasons make me choose it ;) 

So here is my plan.

There no wrong for us to dream big people :) 

food

searching for food menajamkan minda, as skrg ni rasanya otak dh berkarat sikit, kdg2 senang lupa,
so, lets see what food is good for our brain??

1st- chocolate :) wee wee my fevret. A must in my fridge, ngee, increase blood to the brain, as well as it works as antioxidant,

2nd- milk - milk milk milk, okay, its time to buy dutch lady berkotak2 to put in my room :) 

3rd - almond

4th - honey

5th- kismis

6th- peach 


Alrite, i change my diet to all this food. 

not that i hate but i just aarrggh

i hate intruders,

I hate when i lose my privacy space


:(

one year more

IA will be a final year medical student. SCARY nyaa

a year left for finishing the journey that I start 5 years ago,

scared, happy all feeling mix up,

google on tips how to study for final exams,

here what i found

Study plan according to the subject:

1. Start with anatomy to know about normal human structures.
2. Then physiology to understand body mechanisms and adaptations.
3. Then pathology to know about the diseases.
4. Then go for pharmacology for the treatment of the diseases.
5. Then microbiology and biochemistry should also go hand in hand.

Anatomy Study Tips:

• Refer Atlas
• Create Mnemonics
• Practice figures
• Creating algorithms
• Studying organ models and bones
• Frequent revision

Physiology Study Tips:

• Read, understand and understand

Pathology Study Tips:

• Follow standard textbook like Robbins and create short notes.
• “Illustrated Pathology” and “Harshmohan” can help you in drawing gross and microscopic features.

Pharmacology Study Tips:

• Mug up the classification of drugs
• Understand the mechanism of actions
• Create mnemonics
• Practice reasoning questions

Microbiology Study Tips:

• Create a pattern for writing lab diagnosis (eg. Specimen, Microscopy, Culture, Antibiotic sensitivity, etc)
• Understand classes of organisms
• Learn lab procedures

Biochemistry Study Tips:

• Practice diagrams of metabolism and cycles
• Create mnemonics

lets work and make this final year a success

misi membuang sawang

haa been quite long tk merepek di blog,

busy with my 2 months electives, exam and yeah raya :)

Alhamdulillah, through out stay in bandung and puasa, loss about 6 kg :) weapi2

Planning to maintain my current weight, oo dugaan yg sgt mencabar nnti nk maintain berat. mana tk nya, kat johor tu pg2 mmg lapa nasi lemak, mlm nk makan kae teow sup la bagai.

need to set my mind and be strict with my diet. 

Happy eid- mubarak people :)

i am so selfish

Haa i never know im this selfish, and go this far.
SOORRY

its me 

tq for being patients.

the day

2 june 2013

i will Remember this date :)

its when both our parents meet for the first time. wee at Kak Hani n ANgah's fandi kawin.

I was so worried will our parents go well. curious what should i do that day, even baju pun grr beberapa kali try tkda yg sesuai. 

ALhamdulillah, our parents can sembang2 well, satu cakap kedah satu cakap perak. Ngee, at first tk dpt tgkap, when digest beberapa minit baru laa paham. 

ME, PAPA N MAMA

fandi's sister (alin n adik),mama n fandi's mum :)

iA our timee will come. 

asam pedas

Waaah, tgah hari tadi bau sedap ja mama masak kat dapur, Im fasting today, so tk la bjalan2 ke dapur menggugat iman, soon dkt nk bbuka g godek2 dapur apa ada nk bbuka, was so suprise its ASAM pedass in the periuk, weeeeeee weeee excitednyaa nk bbuka..

mom secretly cook asam pedas for me as menu berbuka, tq mama for suprisee, hee eden hirup 2 pinggan :)

tq

Tq for the suprise,

heheee I never know you will do it,

TQ for making another one of my wish come true.



-ps, i always have merepek2 pnya wish, maap susahkaan 

A q to answer

To whom yang ask about the felt, yeah i bought from this website

http://susndfeltproduct.blogspot.com/

have a look guys. :)

stuff

we see stuff differently

afraid

Ya ALLAH

Im afraid of the future,

Make me brave.

understand ?

:-) :-)

There one thing I really wanna do during my first 2years, but I wasn't able to do

soto

here, if i want to make soto nnti, i refer here.

SOTO;
1 ekor ayam bersihkan.
2 biji bawang besor-blend
5 ulas kecik bawang putih-blend
1 inci halia-blend sebab lengkuas takde stok sepatutnya lengkuas
1/2 inci kunyit hidup-blend
2 biji buah keras-blend

1 sdk lada hitam
1 sdk ketumbar
1 sdk jintan manis
1 sdk jintan putih

Lada hitam,ketumbar,jintan manis Dan jintan putih semua Goreng tanpa minyak lepas tu blender.

2 btg serai di titik
1 kiub pati ayam
3 sudu besar serbuk sup adabi.

CARA:-
-Tumis semua Bahan hingga naik bau. Masukkan ayam Dan air. Rebus ayam tu hingga masak. Angkat ayam biar sejuk lepas tu carik carik kecik.

-Sup tu perasakan dgn garam,kiub Dan angkat la.

Nasi Impit Rebus
Kacang tanah Goreng
Daun Sup Dan bawang garnish
Suun Goreng
Ayam rebus yg di siat siat tadi

Sambal kicap

10 biji cili API. Nak Lebih tambah je.
3 ulas bawang putih
Kicap

Semua Bahan tuk Sambal kicap blender

Pergedil saya ambik resipi dlm Myresipi.com semua resipi Lebih kurang sama je dlm tu.

sponge

Be a good absorbent,

like sponge :)

Labour day

Haa I guess my brain and mind mogok for labour day :)

they are so lazy todaay haissh

:)

perfectly describe :)

syukur

Some stuff which so hard to understand before become easier now thanks you ALLAH. Maybe time is the main barrier before :-) 

cant believe i done this

Im so lazy girl (lazy means - not interested doing some fancy2 things) 
when my bestie, tasha was so crazy over felt products,
so Im a bit interested in doing it,
came out with an idea, making a bantal for afandi,
as I promise him before. 

Friday 19th april, I was drawing this kind of image in my brain, what my bantal looks like, its must have two cat, watching the moon and star up up in the sky. then there will be tree, tree yang ada daun2 gugur. ngee that time berangan ja. the background will be dark night,

exactly the design that i imagined in my mind

So, on saturday, tetiba terbukak website suggest by tasha. They have so many colours of felt, so i decided, lets give a try on this stuff, haha if cantik must be so proud, if buruk takpaa, haaa he will accept it willingly (yela, kalau buruk kena paksa guna jugakk). bila dah siap beli, haha hitung2 hari bila brg ni nk smpai.









the felt that saya beli arrive on tuesday. weee so excited, dapat2 ja parcel tu terus bukak and start jahit2 sikit. that time felt ja ada, kapas for bantal plus gam uhu nk lekat2 gmbar2 tk ada. Was so worried, who gonna help me buy this stuff, Tasha nun kat ganu haa, left with need to buy it with fandi, so terpaksa tipu sunat when he asked why you suddenly buy UHU and bantal?? -- erk that time my best answer was aa laci meja saya tercabut, tu yang kena beli tu- for bantal. saja nk beli bantal lebih, nk penuhkan katil dgn bantal - (which truly liar, haa because my bed is so overload with 2 bantal, 1 my bantal busuk, next 3 teddy bear)

on friday, i totally able to finish it. hee when i was to absorb doing something, i ignore all other things (eat and mandi). imagine, i just have brunch at 11.00 am, though lapa tim jahit, i just cant stop, i need to finish it first. I have my dinner at 10pm- thats was my second meal after 11 am. haaa what a workaholic I am.. But im so satisfied with my works. 

Tadaaa my first ever bantal (proud of myself, creative jugak ek aku ni, k itu hanya berlagak)

bantal dari sisi depan, hee oo belukar tu bukan dalam plan asal, terpaksa letak sbb nampak kosong sebelah kanan kucing tu.

belakang, just want to make it simple, as depan dah byak sgt grafik

-done gave it to mr afandi. as reward for him finishing his larian marathon today.congrats you able to finish it though without lots of training. let see berapa lama jaa bntal ni maintain cantik ;)

yeppi

when the one you been drawing become real :)

SOmeone and something

I appreciate stuff, moments, people, and even song from my past.
Thats why I can remember what happen to me,
The praises that other gave,
criticizer, or enemy. (not much enemy i guess, ngee~)

Stuff
Presents that people gave, or some paper note that we passed during our school time, yes2 it still there in my locker, pembalut hadiah, kdg2 plastik hadiah pun disimpan, thats why sometimes my drawer full of rubbish, but so sayang to throw it away. 

Moments
Its valuable people, it teach me up till now, i learn a lot through everyday I faced. sadness, tears, happiness and laughter. moments share with families, housemates, roomates, friends and beloved one :) Sad how time flies, make us far apart, but the memories we create is still there, and I must say im lucky enough I travelled those times creating great memories with u guys, I can say I dont lose anything... 

People
Every people that I met through my life, Yes I can say i remember, if not name, maybe I can recognise ur face. Wee my cikgu tadika. cikgu2 skolah rendah, pluss menengah. the most important teachers that guide me through my life were ustazah n ustaz at KAFA, without them, maybe Im lost. 

Songs 
People sometime call me jiwang n rock kapak, yeaa humming those old2 song, guess what, old song is much better. They have their own mesej, n their song is honest and best. tk macam skrg, cukup syarat ja buat tmbah dlm album...

True :) and i Believe in those wordss.

-Love what you have, you only have little time to spent with them, sooner or later, you know you will lose them

deeply sorry

Sorry,

things not working well..

watch this

Have you guys watch this??

Watch watch.
This is what our generation nowadays.
Scary, and sad.
I almost crying watched this.
What happen to us nowadays?
KIdsss, why are you like this?
Im scared, how am I able to grow up my child wisely,
and make him a good person,
The worlds outside is so much of harm.

Aa, what best is, make Malaysia Goverment set a rule,
make lesser Gangsterism and jambu2 story,
make more story like Hafalan solat delisa,
Biar industri perfileman jatuh merundum,
Lets focus on Health and education,
That will lead to a better generation..

my new stuff to hunt.

i do admire this stuff.

aaaa

camera polaroid.. (google)

its on sale now, cost about rm170. waaaa besnyaa, amik gmbr terus keluar, heehee, for fun :)

but after long (k short ja) diskusi, I cant buy it

because i need to save my money to indonesia, i got plenty stuff more important to buy, plus i already have well functioning camera. tssk tssk..

-its ok, hee act, i can easily changed my mind, but currently no for this item, maybe next2 year yesss.

...

How am I gonna suffer for coming 2 months??

stuff that im scared

I'm kinda paranoid people. scared of something will harm me. Here are things that can elevate my anxiety :

1) Jarang bukak kipas laju2, haaa I hate the sounds that came when kipas bergerak laju, plus I'm scared the kipas will jatuh and hempap me. haa my brain is so good in thinking of bad things.

2) I hate the sound when flush the toilet, scaryyyy. haha afraid something might come out from it. Especially kalau flush tim atas flight, haa risau mcm mana laa kalau toilet ni terjatuh tim flush..  (I know there someone out there afraid of the same thing, hee you know who u r XD )

3) When atas flight,selalu terfikir macam mana laa kalau graviti tarik kuat sgt, so flight akan jatuh. ooo 

4) Afraid of the sea, Though been to beberapa pulau in Sabah n been to Lgkawi as well, but still, I cant overcome it. Always afraid of dying dalam air. Rasa mati dalam air lg ngeri dari mati atas darat.. 

5) Afraid of cat, yes2 haa its develop since childhood. Act, I was once pembuli binatang. Not only me, I got a geng dulu, Me, jamil n Azhar. (Im tomboyish before, so my kawan2 kecik boys. ngee). We love to kacau cats, as bersepah cat kat quarters penjara pulau pinang dulu. So one day, My friend and I were teasing a Persian cat, I dont know but people said Persian cat garang. SO Azhar was the one who tarik2 n kacau ekor cat tu. I was behind his back. Suddenly, th cat became angry and scratch azhar's leg. OOO I saw with me eyes that incident, Azhar nangih teruk n berdarah kaki dia, Since that I'm afraid of cat. OO even dog..

6) Dogs, I dont know why but when kat UK, dogs always came near me. WHYY WHY dog?? AAA, i was afraid of it, I can remember one winter day, when was walking back from my class, ada dog kat depan, I purposedly took Jalan atas rumput (bukan rumput pun sbb kna tutup salji, ngee). then the dog came to my way, stand beside me, the owner of this dog was at the phone that time, I was so panic and shout. Yes tanpa malu dan segan silu saya jerit, "waaaa, sorry but Im afraid of dogg". the owner then called the dogs. 

its me n ecah :)

7) Im afraid of taking risk, I dont like to harm myself, like doing bungee jumping, yes I know its fun but as a good thinker of bad things, I cant help myself to stop thinking the rope will putus, what if terjunam jatuh. Lots more fun things I, afraid to do, but bungee jumping is on my dont want to do list, nge2. However, I love paragliding.  

genetic

having difficult time studying genetic before. as genetic is so complicated.. I always melengah2kan study this topic.
Alhamdulillah, during this holiday, Ive spent my time studying it. (Not all, ngee only what the syllabus required). And I think, I fall in love with genetic. Siap berangan lg nk jd genetician. ngeh2. 

yes2 I am in love with you xoxoxo  (ehsan google.com)

ps- Titipan forum perdana semalam, seorang ______ (I cant remember either its Some Imam / sahabat nabi), menuntut ilmu bak mencari anak tunggal , satu-satunya anak yang hilang, Have passion people :)

My 4 little kids

OO house currently so quiet, no kids around, left me and mama n adik, 

Tim budak2 4 org ada memg bising, though they were busy playing among themselves, yes the girls playing masak2, while the boys playing wiht ipad, ipad tu, mak njang nye pun main tablet murah jee

like always, they always said funny things

my first anak sedara- i was explaining how cancer can develop in normal person, which then suddenly him, jijat said, wow maknjang ni macam bomoh la, blh tau smua. :)
him again, he was looking at his pak su previous2 exam result, which he didnt get A, jijat said 'kesian pak su, tk pernah dapat A, aizat sllu dapat A' oo budak kecik nii
then, one day he was combing my hair, which then he said, rambut mak njang macam GD laa, which GD is G dragon, korean pop is so famous, kids 8 tahun pn kenaii..

my damia n tin tin, the power puff girl, their grandmother was putting some ubat, as they complaining they have gatal2 behind their back
their grandma said - ni sebab hampa main peluh2 la ni, tu yg gatai badan tu
tina- dak2 , kami main masak2 ja
mia sampuk - aah tkda main peluh2, 

my little baby rayyan - anjang, rayyan nk tido dgn anjang laa, then 10 minutes- rayyan nk tido dgn abang aijat laa, then when we woke up, realised he run and sleep with his mother- he said, kesian ibu tido soyang2, rayyan nk teman ibu :)

kids they never fail to make us smilee :) 

-im getting another 1 nieces, due 10th april, then another 1 mayb in june. weehee the more the merrier cucu2 pak jalil.

~

never

I couldnt sleep last night,
worrying of something,
Hows different thing are from what we seen them,
From what we know.


Sad for things that happen,
Who are we?
Who am I to tell?
Im not myself good enough, 
Fill of kudus as well.

Just want you to know,
Its worrying me, 
Sometimes we think we done nothing wrong,
What others view it?
Maybe it doesnt matter what other think about it,
once a while, think about it, is it good?

Things that I learned,
People do change in life, we are human right?
Plus, orang beragama dan org beragama yang mengamalkannya adalah dua individu berbeza..

fish

wake up this morning with an idea

I want to bela fish 

Yes2, buy an aquarium n put a small2 fish inside it,


doesnt it beautiful???

simple wish

I always wish people understand what I'm trying to do to make them understand, unfortunately I failed. AAA I found hard to tell directly, I hope they uunderstand
which the probability of it is low.. disappointedb

finally :D

Yeah, finally we reached 1 year being together, 1 March 2013. (its not our actual date) 
as im so bored of celebrate it at shopping complex, so i request him to celebrate at somewhere that brought us to nature. (been bombarded with all work, asigment make you wanna run and lives somewhere you can relax)
so we choose to go to tanjung piai national park, johor. It is the penghujung selatan tanah besar asia :)
supposedly, it took only 1 hour 5 minutes to get there from nusajaya. haa but sadly, we took about 1 hour and 40 minutes after sesat 2 times. seriusly, the penunjuk arah n papan tanda sangat mengelirukan..

Monkeeyy :) honestly, im scared of them, after peristiwa dekat langkawi ~  Thats why i follow petua yg diberikan, berjalan2 smbil bwk payung as the monkey will be scared. its works well.

Permandangan laut..

 yeahh we are there :)

Truee !!

London takes thousand km to reach there xxx

After spending 2 hours there, we went to Pekan Kukup to find delicious food there, There a lot of chinese restaurant, only one kedai melayu there. The food there is super delicious, me and fandi ate a lot. Plus it cheap, for us to have carrot juce, ketam masak cili, udang masak taicu, tm nyam campur, cost about rm 50, udang is so big n fresh. Puas hati makan seafood.

Ketam masak cili kot, cant remember the name

tm yam campur,

udang masak taicu

seriessly, we managed to ate all those food, as usual, fandi the one yang berjaya mkn banyak :D

Then, that what we do for our 1st anniversary. hee hope we remain strong :)